Why am I blogging? I have to say it is so that I can share mi vida cotidiana (my daily life) as well as what the Lord Jesus has been doing in my life. Already it is late tonight and I need to go to sleep, but I knew if I didn't set this up I might never.
I feel like I am growing up so fast. To think that my birthday is less than three months away, and by that time I will only have one year left of college. It has been tough, especially these past couple of weeks. My relationship with Jesus had suffered because it became more of something else I did, instead of truly being and resting within Him. I'm learning to wholly surrender my entire self to Him, because it's all I can do. The song comes to mind, "strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord..." based on Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary and they shall walk and not faint." I have learned more and more what it is like to wait on Him, rather than taking life into my own hands. It is no longer my life, but His. "For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain" Philippians 1:21. It's all His, I am to die to myself daily, because my heart in and of itself, apart from Christ is evil, but praise Him for taking me, saving me, and daily sanctifying me and making me more like Him.
Tonight I worked for about five hours at the restaurant, and it's been tough. I had good tables, but financially I think people must be tight because they tend not to tip well. Praise Jesus that I know He will provide me with exactly what I need, but sometimes it is disappointing when you work so hard and aren't rewarded, yet still I know that my goal is not to please men but to please my heavenly Father. I have an exam tomorrow in Spanish intensive grammar. I suppose I forgot to mention if you didn't get the hint before: I'm a spanish major. I don't know what I'm going to do with it, that's up to Jesus. I'm just being faithful with what He's told me to do. I was originally set on being a Chiropractor and was a biology major, but someone asked me "Are you sure that that is what God wants you to do?" A question that every person should consider before making any decisions. I definitely do not recommend switching or changing right away until you have really laid it before the Lord and prayed about it and He has somehow opened or closed the doors to get you to where He wants you to be. So now I am waiting on what He wants me to do. I believe it will be somewhere in the ministry, whether as a missionary or a minister's wife or in the women's ministry or hispanic ministry. I really have no idea whatsoever, it's all up to Him, and I just want His plan for my life. I'm tired of manipulating situations because I have to say I am so glad that He truly is the boss because otherwise I would mess up really bad. But I need to go to sleep. Somewhat brief yet not description of some of who I am, but you'll get to know me more and more. I doubt I'll write every night just because of all there is to do, but I will try at least several times a week. Keep looking up to the Lord. Sometimes He calls us to be still, as He has for me.
