Response to Proverbs 25:4

Proverbs 25:4 "Take away the dross from silver, and it will go to the silversmith for jewelry."

Day by day You are removing the dross from me
Refining me, burning me, making me pure
As I walk through the fire, You are the One leading me
You are perfect and You have a plan for my life
You have jewlery that You are planning to make out of me
I don't want to resist all that You have for me
Flawless, that is what You are
Without blemish
Looking at you I can barely stand myself
I cannot look at myself for Your beauty is captivating
My heart, soul and mind are enraptured
I want to be wrapped up in Your love
In Your whole Being, Your whole Presence
As I look at You, bit by bit You remove the dross from me
So much like You I want to become
A strange phenomenon:
The more I look at You, the more I am transformed
One day I will be ready
And I can be presented to You as a beautiful piece of jewelry

Beauty from Ashes

Beauty from ashes
said often, but what does it mean?
Our fire has faded and burnt out
white and gray pieces of dust

He stirs us up
An unpleasant smoke appears
The scent of it stings the nose
but then, peering closer there is red

A crimson color covered by dust
A faint ember seen only by the Savior
He moves in us, breaking off the charcoal shell
Releasing more smoke, more pain

But even in the unpleasantness
He is working, moving
Snaps sound, tiny flames begin to form
He is the master Firemaker and maintainer

He breathes life over us
We ignite, bursting into bright lights
Licking the air He's given us
trying to get as much of Him as possible

We can only partially survive without Him
But it is meager, only minimal
We thrive only when we give Him control
He is our source. We must let Him kindle us.

Letting Go

My heart is breaking
as I turn and walk away from him
How I want to run back
and tell him I didn't mean it

My soul cries out "Don't leave!"
and I don't want to...
I swear I don't
But what choice do I have?

If my ultimate desire is to please God
I cannot look back
I need to keep moving forward
sprinting forward toward Christ

We both taught and challenged another
God used that time, but I need to move on
It's said that some leave footprints in our lives
now footprints are all that remain

I will not be able to see all He's planning
So why strain myself in trying to do so?
He's promised that all things work together for good
and He does not lie, nor will He ever.

I hope one day he will turn back
back to his first Love
The One who says that nothing
absolutely nothing can take us from His Father's grasp

Until then I will leave him
and entrust him to my Father
He who loves him even more than I...
In Him will I put my confidence

There is nothing I can do
If the power of human love
could change things
it already would have

Keep him safe please Father
It's all that I ask
I'm letting to of him, help me
Might I always remember he's in your hands

(completed tonight)

Come to Me

My heart cries out for you
The life I had planned perfectly
How things change

What you would do for me
and what I would do for you
Complete perfection in our fellowship

You would have been able to see the joy
on your father's face the first time
you opened your mouth and called him "Daddy"

The first time your training wheels came off
when you fell off your bike
I would have been there to collect your tears

I promise you I would have been there
for your awkward time in middle school
braces, bad hair days, trying so hard to be cool

When you struggle with knowing my plans for you
I would have been there
yet you haven't cried out to me

And what about your wedding day
He's anxiously waiting for you at the altar
but you haven't showed up. You won't.

I'm sorry my beautiful girl
No one was there to support your mommy
She couldn't do it on her own

I want you to know she wanted you
She really loved you
but there was no one there

They told her she'd be alone if she kept you
There was condemnation
I'm sorry but she didn't know me then

You didn't get your chance to live
But know that I am still good
I wanted you to live, please know that

Yet now you are home with Me
and I am working everything to My glory
Even though then you did not live, your mommy now does

Her heart was broken, she was wounded,
I am the healer of the brokenhearted
I am binding up her wounds

My little girl, my precious daughter,
your mommy now knows Me
Rejoice with Me, one day you'll meet her!

She still aches for you,
but she trusts that you are in My arms
Do you see a little bit how I work?

I hate that My precious little ones are being terminated
but look at the beauty arising from ashes
This is who I am, this is what I do

I will not remove My love from them
Though they fall, I will pick them up
I am the God of forgiveness, the God of grace

I do not cast away any who come near Me
My own Son has paid the price for their error
If they would just turn to Me

I want to satisfy, fill, and heal them
To free them from the bondage of sin by the power of My Spirit
If they would just come to Me.

Come to Me.